Change of Setting.

Yep, I'm home for the week. UConn was completely deserted by 4pm Friday, making me one of the last people to leave this morning. Home has proven to be the same as usual, boring and even worse because barely anyone is home. It's kind of scaring me for after graduation, I want my twenties to be exciting. I want fun people around me but who knows what will happen to my friends in the months to come. I feel like everyone is going to do their own thing, which some already are.

So what's the deal with friendship anyway? It really is a funny thing. Think back to a few years ago. Were you hanging out with the same people you are now? Maybe yes, maybe no. I guarantee there's at least one friend that you will think of and be like, "wow, what happened to that person? we had so many good memories together." I guarantee you'll remember someone you're GLAD is out of your life, but overall you'll be surprised at how different things really are. This especially applies to my situation at college. Sophomore year, I talked to easily five times the amount of people I do now. I've noticed what has happened; as the college years passed by friends group became smaller and closer, with certain people being "weeded" out. You would think the opposite would occur, that the more time you spend somewhere the more people you'd meet over time. But no, not many people stay in the picture for very long. You could spend two years sharing laughs and spending evenings with people, only to barely know them anymore a year later. I really hate that feeling...

Ideally, I'd love to have a big group of friends who all knew each other and got along. Nothing is worse than a group of friends that are split because certain people can't get along. I know first hand, because I've been one of the people who couldn't be around another. It sucks to do that to your friends, it sucks to be the problem. Either way, the worst feeling when it comes to friendship is when you lose a friend. Whether it be through a fight, natural drifting, whatever it is. It's horrible. You are so naturally used to hitting them up and it takes you a second to remember that things are different now. Especially when you can't replace them, because your friends group just keeps getting smaller.

Moral of the story? Before you stop chilling with someone, take a look at the big picture. What are you throwing away? Is it really worth it? You never know when you'll throw away the wrong person and lose a really important part of your life. So yeah, pace that shit.

Song of the day: Say It Ain't So by Weezer.

Good night everyone.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ENXvZ9YRjbo&ob=av2e