Pages

Monday, August 20, 2012

Summer's....Over?

It's an interesting moment when you head directly to the gym from work and join the hoard of middle aged businessmen changing into their sweat shorts to attempt to get in shape before going home to dinner. You feel like you've officially crossed over into adulthood; until you realize you forgot your running shoes. At this point, you either work out in your shower shoes, go home and get proper shoes, or give up. I'd like to call it the fat child within me to use this as an excuse to blow off the gym and get food, which is precisely what I did. That little bit of immaturity saved me from believing that I had really become an adult.

On that note, the last days of summer are among us and for once, I am not among the swarm of happy college kids excited to go back for a year of friends, fun, and time away from their parents. I passed through my old campus this weekend, and it was such an odd feeling to be around without a sense of belonging. Ironically enough, it was the oldest college memories that flashed back to me. The first days as a scared freshman; the progression into second semester and sophomore year. Why were those thoughts so crystal  clear over the most recent, happier ones? I have no idea. But it made me realize that college didn't exactly fly by the way I thought it did. There were many memories forgotten, lost deep within my mind that for some reason were surfacing. I really didn't mind, it was actually a happy feeling. 

So yes, the last time I blogged was at the beginning of summer. I had just gotten back from Europe, and was in the first few days at my new job. I'm still there, and really settling in. Having money is awesome. Three day weekends? Also a nice perk. I can't say after getting home from Europe that I did anything exciting this summer. I've settled into a routine, which makes the time fly. The next big step in my life will be moving out of the house, which won't start being looked into until January of 2013. 

So to give an update, there's not much of an update. Variety has been removed from my life, and I'm going through the motions. Sadly, I have this feeling of waiting inside me. Like everything in my life is temporary, and I'm biding time for something bigger to happen. What exactly am I waiting for?